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?Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: liverpool
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My doctor has refferred me to a councilor and put me on beta blockers. I must admit im not being fair by telling half a story....The flirty text messages....he said were just a joke, everyone at work does it but if it makes me feel unhappy he will stop (thats after we argued and he finaly admitted it was wrong). The photos he has got rid of. The invited the ex to stay is the worst though. All these have happened in the last eight months. When we first got together he was telling me how wonderful his ex was. How she had done modelling and maybe i should try the same. Felt like he was trying to turn me into het. I have struggled with an eating disorder and ive lost six stone. 3 of which, since we have been together. He says he cant notice. He just sees me. Then when he was massaging my legs he commented on how little muscle content i had. Also that i didint need to lose weight because skinny women arent attractive. I weighed 8 stone 10. He said if i wanted to lose more weight he would be behind me 100% if thats what i wanted. I found lots of pics of REALLY skinny girls on his laptop so he obviously does find them attractive. There are just loads of little things. I have a constant ache in my chest and i get chest pains if i think too much. Its not healthy. I will add that he is really nice to me in other ways. He makes me a cup of tea every morning, he massages me every night in the hope that i get some sleep. He has taken on my two kids and is fantastic with them. A great father figure. He says he wasnt sure he loved me when he did these things in the early stages but he thinks the world of me now and has done for some time. I really believe he is sorry. It's not as though he has cheated? I dont know if im being too harsh or not harsh enough. He forgot my birthday in the beginning our 1 year anniversary and didnt get me a valentines card on our first valentines day...now he makes much more effort. My trouble is that i remember every bad conversation word for word. My memory is too good with the negative.
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